Scars. Final part. A continuation of 'if only she'

Few weeks earlier..

 I've lost my job and behind on my rent, all thanks to lovetth. I have very little savings which is meant for college and I have no family or friends to borrow from. I'm completely ruined ; all because of George. 

 The scars you can't see are the hardest to heal..

 Jana still calls once in a while so I'm absolutely sure no one bothered to tell her about my affair with George. I'm still rueful over being dumped by George and I still can't get him out of my mind. 

        I decide to let go or didn't I ?

I put school on hold and apply for jobs in a different neighborhood, I still visit Jana at the house, but only when she's alone. I used the opportunity to inhale George's clothes everytime. He smelt the same, just how I liked it. Jana was always occupied with her job to notice whatever was wrong. 

 "I have this surgery tomorrow and it's all I can think of' she said to me while making coffee.

 "You've always been great at your job, I'm sure you'll do great"

 "Thanks dear, you're such a sweet girl"

 "Anytime Jana, can I use the restroom?"

 "How can you ask to use the restroom when it's also your home? Find your way young lady"

After using the restroom, I hug Jana and hurry back home with a smug all over my face. 

 You can forget the pain, but the scars would remind you. 

I get a new job and I decide to pay my former home a visit. The entrance is unlocked as I twist the doorknob 

"Hello lovetth" I say smiling. 

"What do you want here? She retorted.

"What do you mean? I came to pay my bestfriend, I mean my ex bestfriend a visit. Oh wow! you look so pale, your leg looks really bad. Shouldn't you be at the hospital?"

"Are you here to mock me or what?"

"Mock you? Why would I? I've had my fair share of horrible things you know and where's George by the way?" I ask getting comfortable on the couch.  

"He went to get medications" she said coughing in pain. 

"And Jana? How is she?"

"Not well, she's depressed and slowly losing her mind"

"Oh that's quite pitiful, didn't know it'll be that bad"

"That bad? Who told you about her health? My father?"

"George? Hell no! He wouldn't even speak to me. I came to render some assistance...

"You knew about all we were going through before now, didn't you? Were you spying on us?"

"Oh my scrawny lovetth, if I knew stupidity came with accidents, I'd have killed you instead. I can't stand all these questions" I say standing up to get a glass of water and a knife from the kitchen. 

"You did this to me Claudia?" She cries out. 

"Of course dummy and every other thing that has happened to your family. Let's say I learnt a lot being a stoic & a sex slave for years.." I pause feeling unassailable as George walks in. 

"Oh my love, you're just in time for the party" I say with my eyes fixated to his groin. 

"Why are you here Claudia? Didn't I warn you to stay away from my family?" He asks angrily. 

"But why is everyone bad tempered today? I only came to see how you all were doing, can't I visit my family?" I ask.

"We're not your family Claudia!" Lovetth yells. 

"Of course you are! Remember calling me sister sometime? I say itching my hair.

"I know you need money George, I can fix all of that. We can find you another job and and and get married and have our own kids running around playing in the garden.. I prattled "I'll always be here for you no matter how much you humiliate and reject me my love"

"What are you talking about and how do you know I'm without a job?" He asks bitterly.

"Ugggggggg" I yell hitting the glass in my hand against the wall "I did it all, I did everything. I exchanged Jana's pack of Buspirone anxiety pills for some other good looking pills. Hahaha, I put Rohypnol, Viagra and barbiturates and they sure worked perfectly fine. I know she always takes a couple before every surgery and I'm sure she was suspended for ineptitude. Oh my dear George, sincerely, all I did was ruin some of your clothing designs, I needed to ravage your career a bit, I needed you to be helpless and jobless. I hope you weren't too devastated...

"Why Claudia? Why?" Lovetth cries out in pain 

"Are you really asking why? I lost my job, my home and even put college on hold all because of you lovetth. You had better be quiet and glad since I only tampered with your brakes" 

"Claudia, get out of my house right now, you've done enough, get the hell out" George says about to pick up the phone.

"Don't you dare dial that number or I'll cut off your little girl's leg" I say licking the knife in my hand. 

"Please Claudia, take it easy. It doesn't have to result to violence. We can work things out"

"Awwww, how pitiful. Do you remember how I begged you to be inside me for just a few minutes?" I say drawing closer to him "Are you ready to make love to me here? Right in front of lovetth, I need you to yell in ecstasy just the way you used to, I need you to tell the whole world how much you can't do without me"

"You're insane Claudia, you're insane" he says.

"You drove me insane my love, don't you realize I did all these for you? All these for your caresses and your kisses and your...

 A wound may heal but scars are forever. 

"It was a wise decision to call us but may I ask a few questions Mr George?"Officer Silva says 

"It's no bother officer"

"Who was she to you? Was she armed?

"She was my daughter's friend, and my lover, an obsessed lover. She'd have killed us with the knife if my wife Jana didn't hit her with the flower vase...

 She wore her scars as her best attire 

"here's your breakfast psycho" the hideous lady says dropping my food on the table.

"has George been here to see me yet? Please let me know, I need to know, I need him desperately, please answer" I cry out. 

She comes closer and replies "no one visits you psycho"

With loathing, I spit at her face and she wipes it off swiftly and with that I know my hell just begun.

           Every scar tells a story.

Scars by James Bay. 

Note: Therapy is very important for every child who goes through sexual abuse or assault.